In a random conversation with a teacher yesterday I learned something about myself that is almost like a key to unlocking some better understanding about what makes me tick.
I have a pre-conceived set of expectations about the outcomes of pretty much every aspect of my life, when reality doesn't jibe with my expectations then I have a tendency to get frustrated, irritated and short.
What I need to learn how to do is to suspend my expectations and to recognize that what I want to happen is pretty unlikely to happen and in that recognition is the path to being much less frustrated and irritable.
I need to figure out if having this new knowledge about myself can help me to address outstanding issues with my wife, my kids, my dog, my neighborhood and my job. Because knowing something is important but using that knowledge to make direct improvements in your life is another thing entirely.
But this does go a ways towards explaining why I like video games so much, outcomes are, usually, much more controllable in the virtual environment. Reality is just so chock full of variables that literally anything can, and often does, happen.
Update: I've been continuing to do a little research and found some additional information. Now, I don't generally put too much stock in astrology and zodiac signs but... I am a Virgo and the
Virgo characteristics hit pretty damned close to home. Most specifically, the strengths and weaknesses.
Virgo Greatest Strength: Your ability to focus your attention -
though with my ADHD, this is diluted a bit.Virgo Possible Weakness: Need for perfection gets in the way of enjoyment -
oh man, does this ring true for me.
