Decisive Contentment
As I flew home from my weekend of blushing bliss in San Diego (facing backwards on a Southwest flight, strange way to fly really) I was struck by a surprising emotion. I thought I'd be sad and missing Paula as we kissed goodbye and I went through the security screening. But I wasn't, I mean, I miss her and all of that but its beyond that.
There's a very stable and deep seated sense of security that we both share in the knowledge that we're really no longer a pair, we're a unit, we're together even when we're not right next to each other. Knowing that her love is there for me and mine for her casts a shadow of contentment across both of our lives.

There's something so essentially calming and wonderful about finding and knowing the love of your life. And she is mine as I am hers. Content to pedal bikes along the boardwalk, to laze about in bed all morning, to make sushi together (more on that later and maybe a recipe even!), to just be with each other and live in the moment.

And it matters not in the least where we settle down so long as we're with each other. Well, I guess it does matter some, we're ocean and beach people so that pretty well crosses off, oh, ninety percent of America. Shucks, we won't be settling down in Nebraska! But San Diego, Santa Cruz, San Luis Obispo, it just doesn't make a difference.

Which astonishes and amazes me. She blows my mind a thousand times a day, how much I love her, how much she makes my heart burst in my chest and how much I just want to make her happy. And the very best part is that she's in the exact same mindset, loving and pleasing me.

So this is what love is really all about, its not about compromise and battles. Love's about finding that one person who makes you more than who you are without changing who you fundamentally are.
Heading into the first meeting of 2003, I'll try to get more up. Maybe post the sushi we made last night too though that should wait for the pics tonight really. But we'll see.